School Ties

I don't know if you watch Gossip Girl. For better or worse, I generally do each week. In the midst of its second season, the writers have come to a thrilling climax . . . impasse? Star-crossed lover leads Dan and Serena (continually outshone by the caddish and human Blair and Chuck) evidently share a half-sibling. Their parents were rock star and groupie in the long-ago olden-days of grunge, and now, in the gloaming of the aughtsies, as gallerist and icy socialite, they have found each other again and (among other things) brought to light a secret lovechild situation. At the end of last night's episode, we were led to believe that both couples, Dan and Serena and Papa Dan and Mama Serena, would be making a go of it (at the same time!). I think this is all very brave. Let's see what "The Last Time I Saw Richard" thinks.

Theater Games

Newsies

A few things potentially more important than nail polish--

--The Post has provided us with another phrase for everyday use: "sex foul."

--A&P has Mrs. Clinton on the collective mind.

--The Palestinian death toll in Gaza now tops 300 (well over half are civilians). Israeli losses are 13 (ALL soldiers). I have been bereft about the ugly crimes committed by our government in the name of "our safety," driven mad by our lack of agency, by how capable of variously trouncing human rights and other nations' sovereignty without the input of American citizens or allies the Bush administration (over the past eight years) or the C.I.A. (always) have been. I feel similarly about Israel. I am thoroughly disgusted by their military brutishness and religious self-importance. I am ashamed by any association. For me, this single-minded, warring state is more "German" than Jewish.

Nail Color For Tuesday

Between poverty and lack of protein, my fingertips have been suffering. Once was the time when they shone like beacons. Short, square navy blue nails--I invented them (true story). Taupe, turquoise, 40s Polynesian coral . . . also me. For the time being, I'll assuage my sense of loss (and frustration, at the continual theft of my estilo by magazines and their minions) with reports about my favorite lacquers, like Essie's Heavenly Sunset. I'm a great fan of what I call the dusty or winter pinks, sort of grey and unaesthetic, redolent of potpourri, the pharmacy, oversize blazers, aerosol cans. This one is relatively perfect.

High Times, Hard Times--the year 2001

Thank you Sister Pillow for offering us a stirring alien love/unlove song from the planet 2001. Let's continue that close study of the early aughties. It goes without saying that we love all of the collaborations between Aaliyah and Timbaland. She was the proper siren for his Middle Eastern infusions, calling forth the exotic in each tune. "More Than a Woman," released a few months after her untimely death in August of 2001, was essentially a eulogy. At my Memphis high school there was a black lesbian subculture dedicated to honoring her memory (with memorial tall tees, jewelry, hats, folders, binders, posters, backpacks . . .).

Up With People

I promised to write this segment about actual consumption, affordable things, Forum-life in the Good Depression, but I can't be bothered. Look at these shoes! I don't really like shoes. I'd like to be barefoot permanently, and I'm quite suspicious of the cultural tendency to pin "shoe mania" on dames. I would, however, shod myself without any grumbling if I could afford Giuseppe Zanotti's $658 stripper platforms, a genre of shoe I've always admired for its gross, fetid, body-glitter-and-country-buffet glamour (especially in traditional Lucite styles!). Get on board.

Local Motion

No to be too much of diarist, but I've had a weekend that demands recuperation. Little Eva's 1962 offering, "The Loco-motion," does the trick. My first clear memory of the song (it seems to be one of those tunes with which we have an inborn familiarity) was from a mildly traumatic jazz and tap class that I attended for a few months in a church basement aged eight (at a shlubby friend's behest). We shuffle-ball-changed a lot, and we had these awkward solos, the sort where all of the girls gather in a corner and each get a chance to leap/free dance across the floor. Sometimes the teacher would ask us to "vamp" or "model-walk." Sometimes we would practice bonafide choreographed numbers, one, a precious tap dance to Elvis's "Teddy Bear," and the other, a sort of conga-line set to "The Loco-motion." The teacher had a dickens of a time choosing which version, Little Eva or Kylie Minogue, we would ultimately perform alongside; so we rehearsed with both. I skipped that performance and never returned to the class—partially because the instructor had asked that we wear "Christmas sweatshirts" on stage and partially because I had a "date" with Niel Bartlett that night.

Ever since, I had a not pleasant or unpleasant, relatively peripheral relationship with the song, though I was pretty interested in the paternalistic story of her "discovery" by domestic employer, Carole King. Only recently have I begun to hear it unfettered by it's own "oldie-ness," it's childhood jazz and tap class appeal. "The Loco-motion" is loose and soulful and and reservedly optimistic, urging the listener to chug forward, to simply accept the natural tilt of things, claiming "I know you'll get to like it if you give it a chance now." It's a bit of a quarter-life anthem. Here, an abreviated version from a 1963 appearance on Shindig—

Theater Games

Belles Lettres

"The Holy Longing"

Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Tell a wise person, or else keep silent,

because the mass man will mock it right away.

I praise what is truly alive,

what longs to be burned to death.

In the calm water of the love-nights,

where you were begotten, where you have begotten,

a strange feeling comes over you,

when you see the silent candle burning.

Now you are no longer caught in the obsession with darkness,

and a desire for higher love-making sweeps you upward.

Distance does not make you falter.

Now, arriving in magic, flying,

and finally, insane for the light,

you are the butterfly and you are gone.

And so long as you haven't experienced this: to die and so to grow,

you are only a troubled guest on the dark earth.

"One day with the top down is better than a lifetime in a box!"

Art Brut

A friend, while passing the time by google image searching "Memphis rap," stumbled upon this moving piece. 

A Song For You

Theater Games

The What

Clifford "Tip" "T.I." Harris is tops for me. I loved him from his first hit single, the sort of wacky (near wack) "Rubberband Man." And I know that we've mentioned our L.O.V.E. for Chris Robinson's film ATL, in which he played right-side-of-the-law dreamboat Rashad in 2006 (directly after viewing in the theater, Pillow and I went on a shopping tear for velour and gold). The single released concurrently, "What You Know," was a great success of a song that presented a sound befitting the kingly Southern rapper, all trumpets and Baroque ease and bouncing Impalas. I recollect a televised performance from that moment; lean, pretty T.I. came on stage in an oversized black hoodie, the back of which was encrusted with crystals that spelled out the phrase "GRAND HUSTLE" (the name of his Atlanta-based record label). I wanted so badly to steal it from him (and have all of the thrills and closeness that the act implies). Admittedly, I ignored whole albums, aware of him only through his own and others' singles and media (there was a particularly serious Federal case to do with arms dealing).

On my recent trip back South, I noted that Pillow was listening to his most recent album, Paper Trail, released this past Fall. I was so impressed with its full measure, finding each track an uplifting standout. I have since bought a copy myself and have only become more rhapsodic in the process. The first single, "No Matter What" (produced by my beloved Danja), and his collaboration with Justin Timberlake, "Dead and Gone," have proven to be favorites (I'm also pretty nuts about his hit with Rihanna, which samples "Dragostea din tei," a warmly remembered Romanian dance hit of 2004), but, as I said, I am enamored of the whole. It sounds so damn good; it's rich and layered and playful. Paper Trail is distinctly Southern, displaying that aforementioned "Baroque ease," generous and wise noise.

Tip's rhymes are almost exclusively about money, about work, making money without shame. One might imagine that, in these economic environs, a record about money-making would be sour-making. But T.I. builds a perfect balance. Half of the tracks address hard work; they are supremely motivational tunes about individuality and faith and discipline. The other half are wry, bubbly club-tableaux, songs of the spoils of work; these serve to transport us, like a Fred and Ginger movie, a lark about International hotel living for dark, down 1933. There is something really transportative, Psychedelic even, about the House-meets-Hip-hop production of recent years. I have gotten into the habit of mistakenly calling this album Paper Trails. The plural visually describes the glittery, blissed out sensation of these sorts of songs, rap music passed through "The Doors of Perception." Evidently, the title refers to (among other things) the process of writing lyrics on paper, a sweet, rootsy habit that T.I. has returned to.

All in all, I've found a swell, addictive album of push and promise and handsome swagger. And if a record is read as a document of the recording of a record, then this one illustrates a group of people having a fabulous time (read: his collaboration with Ludacris, "On Top of the World"). I'm not so interested in crowning one king of Southern Hip-hop (though many seem to be, including him). T.I is nothing like the others; he's slicker than my Memphis locals, crisper than anything out of Houston, calm when Lil' Wayne is manic, sexy when Ludacris is silly. But his product and accent are undeniably of the region and, in his his words, "divine."

Up With People

In a purchasing rut/freeze, I still need to affect change in my apartment. So I will buy a couple of yellow sawhorses and some packs of Rit dye. I am not wildly crafty, not a brilliant builder, but I can certainly prop planks. And, personally, I love the inconsistent, drippy, at-home-disaster look of a dress or curtains given a Rit bath.

Chinese Democracy

"I'm addicted to proms!"

- Taylor Swift in the spring issue of Your Prom magazine

Founding Fathers: Buffy Summers, She Saved the World. A Lot.

There's been a lot of talk of 2005 as of late, and it's got me thinking about how I survived that fever dream of a year. After I meditate on it, my endurance can be chalked up to four factors: Alpha, Able, Lil' Kim, and Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

As a small-but-scrappy, slightly damaged blonde with violent tendencies who had fancied myself invincible and had it all blow up in my face, I was thrilled at the idea of seeing someone like me (the archetype of the fragile damsel) who was pretty much invincible. Buffy Summers could roam the streets at night alone, crawl through sewers, stop Armageddon, travel to alternate dimensions, drown, get stabbed, and was constantly saving the dudes' asses. But how Buffy really won me over was that she was not, in fact, bulletproof. She was victim to various aches and pains due to an absentee father, lovers who viciously turned on her, the loss of her mother, and her well-meaning but selfish friends who constantly (albeit unconsciously) put their need for her strength and leadership over her own well-being.

I learned a lot of valuable lessons from good ole B, but, in the end, the most important thing she taught me was that sometimes you just need to FUCKING DEAL. You get killed by a thousand year old vampire on prom night? You're boyfriend turns evil? He tries to torture and kill you? You die, finally find a little peace and quiet, and your clueless friends bring you back to life? Wash the blood out of your dress, pick the leaves out of your hair, and claw your way out of your own grave; because the world's sure as hell not going to save itself.

Unfortunately YouTube is awash with fan videos, but no actual clips. So head over to the WB's website to catch a few episodes from the first season.

Look Away Look Away

I was really unreasonable about the Whitney's Eggleston retrospective (ultimately, a fine show). I was critical of each subset of images, felt each gesture on the part of curators signalled a kind of misinformed Dixie Orientalism. The photographs themselves, the artist (if not the man) are so important to me, the subjects are so much of my own home and experience, that I am intolerant of any meddling "outsiders." I call Memphis an Orient all of the live long day, but, for some reason, I get suspicious when non-Memphian others jump on the bandwagon.

Originally, I became prickly when I read the catalogue. The first essay, written by some German or other, refers to Egg's Delta seat of Sumner, Mississippi as a town of "the Bayou." There are bayous in Mississippi, but Sumner is part of what we call the Delta. The Bayou (note the capital letters) describes a region at the base of the river, primarily Louisiana. As I type this, I find that it sounds sort of petty, but it's a blaring mistake, a bit like treating contemporary Austria and Hungary interchangeably. I took it as a sign that the builders of this show knew little of where they spoke. The author, with the simple misuse of a moniker, errantly summons so much foolish Hollywood camp--Spanish moss, swamp things, voodoo, bad accents.

Of course, there are many so-called "outsiders" who have a gift for the Southern in text, in song, in film, in conversation and kindness. And there are "outsiders" who get it wrong, but with only the best intentions and brilliant results. Such a one is Kurt Weill. "The Alabama Song" from Bertold Brecht's 1927 songspiel, Mahagonny, revels in the exoticism of the placename, four syllables of Amercan Indians and jazz and whatever else these Weimar socialists imagined. Enjoy this ode on the great "Asia" of these United States (and Lotte too)--

Folk Art for Thursday

I cannot distill a single image from this gallery. You must view them ALL. And please, anyone more versed in Freudian thought than myself (that's you, PMC) let me know what you think. I'm strapped and baffled.

Timetables

Last night, between 6:20 and 7:00 I needed to kill some time. I was westward ho on 23rd imagining that I would land in Home Depot (Lord knows why) when I came upon the entrance to the NR. Without a thought, I scurried underground and hopped on an Uptown and Queens-bound train. I felt naughty. And how! Riding along with no business or obligation. no destination. the wrong train. the incorrect train. I was a fraud passenger, a secret interloper. I was there simply to observe the sound, the sensation, the faces of the Queens-bound (being so accustomed to the Brooklyn-bound . . . ), and listen to Rosanne Cash.  

In the warm months, when I need to waste an hour or adjust my back or recover from my various complaints, I find a spot of green and sun in a park to recline on. Winter is tough for me. But now I know of something invigorating (if not quite as blissful or physically curative) to do out of time and weather. Imagine that.

A Song For You

Also for this mess of winterishness: a grey, pretty, hibernating tune, a bit of haze and 1973 (a year I've always felt good about).

Overpopulism

Mythology!

Bless my soul! Lil' Wayne may not be a new artist (I'm talking to you crazy National Academy of Recording Arts and Sciences), but this past year's Tha Carter III is clearly a benchmark record. This track, besides featuring a verse by Mr. President Jay-Z, presents us with hubris-speech befitting a volume of Edith Hamilton.

The Best Thing Going (For Tuesday)

Woop! There it is.

Cartoons

"Low" Countries

I write this, in part, to put to bed some lingering frustrations over the rapid L.A.-ification of Manhattan. Mostly, I want to talk about the "Low" in "High and Low." It's pretty clear what we mean when we say "High"--museums and poems and operas and such. But the ambiguous "Low" is the real driving force here, the texture and spice, the questing (that's another meaning of "High and Low") humour that completes the collage. It is not simply the mainstream information that we impart, the television and music and celebrity schlock. "Low" is where we come from. "Low" is Memphis. "Low," or rather, "High and Low" used to be Manhattan. Not so long ago, in the early and middle aughts, we inhabited that island of Dutch settlers, strings of perfect summers, delicious messes, such trips, such high-flying meals. We were sometimes in Brooklyn, but most nights were for Manahatta. The Lower East Side still felt (dare I say it) gritty and occasionally glitzy (in the most artful way). I was young and starry and in love with someone who was, in Velvets' parlance, "in love with the scene." I had no idea that we were living in twilight days, that everything would soon change and that my love and his cronies would be partially responsible.

Here's an important story: one night, almost by accident, I ended up at Bungalow 8, the Chelsea club that catered most specifically to Hollywood and P.R. and stuff, a club that had been featured on an episode of Sex and the City (if that gives you some notion of its various expense and uncoolness). I found the whole experience laughable. I felt like some princess emissary of the "Low," dressed carelessly, feeling much further from my friends and lover than I actually was (they were at the Passerby, some ten blocks south). The DJ played a manic mess of radio hits, cutting each one short at the minute mark. There were hideous, greasy financial types (they NEVER came around my haunts) throwing dollar bills at gyrating MILFs and Russians. I picked the money up off of the floor and tucked it into my jeans. On the banquette beside us, a sunny Kirsten Dunst and sour Jake Gyllenhaal (clearly a bad match). I recall feeling terribly sorry for her. She was lovely and (shallow as it sounds) dressed much more like me than like those MILFs and Russians. I thought, "Poor thing, she has no idea where to go. She is so programmed with this silly, cosseted Hollywood nightlife stuff of bottles and doors that she hardly knows of the real fun and freedom of life Downtown. If she wanted to come our way, we wouldn't hassle her or gawk, and she could be, you know, authentic by association . . ." Where I came from, there were no lines, lists, or doormen. The system was democratic--if one knew where to go, one was assured a place at that unmarked table. We didn't need some monitor outdoors to assure us that we were hip. Our table seated rich and poor, young and old, known and unknown, any old stranger. The set-up was positively romantic.

Not long after I left the love and scene and city of the above descriptions (for a respite in Memphis), he and his dear friends opened up the Beatrice Inn, a West Village club with a strict door policy and (to this day) a constant rotation of young starlets present—Kirsten (no longer lost at Bungalow) and Lindsay and Mary-Kate. I have not been. I can't quite stomach it. But in this new, unfamiliar Manahatta, the cruel, moneyed exclusivity of Beatrice is welcome relief from the loads of finance and Eurotrash and Greek Row and television star assholes who frequent the Lower East Side and East Village. Worse-er still, Gavin Brown's Passerby on 15th Street, America's most special hole-in-the-wall discotheque, our clubhouse and social sculpture, our school for scandal, closed last year. And why not? All people of taste realize that Manhattan nightlife is a bad, bad business these days. On that silly night at Bungalow, I never could have guessed that Kirsten Dunst would one day chase me out of my lair. Thankfully, I don't want to live in that lair anymore, old or new. I've ceased to be that scrappy nineteen year old with a scenester boyfriend, a fount of energy and an ugly ego (read: habit for drugs). And Manhattan, up and down, has become a graveyard for cultural authenticity, a blank frontier for dizzy, wealthy transplants, a den of closed doors and limitations and malls, a Los Angeles. This did not happen of a moment; it has long been in the works (since the 80s I suppose, or 1870? . . . who can tell). But now, for the first time, it seems that there is no recourse, no fight to keep the island viable for the "Low." (It is still, however, most most viable for the "High"—the exterior of Lincoln Center alone, never mind the hundreds of brilliant performances within.)

MTV's new "reality" vehicle The City with its thin middle school lies, its pose of Uptown and Downtown as Bloods and Crips is the ultimate jumping of the hep-titude shark. Nowadays, Uptown and Downtown are simply cardinal descriptors. The meaningful divide is the East River; the ends of the spectrum are Brooklyn and Manhattan, and Brooklyn is my home. BK is less capable of the stellar, sewery "Lows" of the Manhattan that was (though Bushwick has put in its bid). Instead, we foster a sweet, romantic, "true to your school" neighborhood ethos with locavore restaurants and beer gardens and bourbon bars and curated junk shops. When combined with real houses and beaches and the actual, longstanding chops of a complex, multi-ethnic working class city-over-the-bridge, the whole picture of Brooklyn becomes a pretty fascinating one. It is the home for artists that Manhattan (for obvious economic reasons) cannot be anymore (though grubtastic, nearly-in-Brooklyn Chinatown has put in its bid). (Oh—and, we may soon be voting Williamsburg off of the non-island despite some stellar residents, restaurants, etc., because Peaches Geldoff lives there in some tacky condo.) In Brooklyn, I am at home because I see the "Low," authentic, real, and unstudied around me all of the time, and the inauthentic, studied gentrified stuff has its heart in the right place. I'm at home in Brooklyn because I'm older and healthier than I was before, and I like "home" more than the endless, rough abroadness of my old Manhattan life. Here it's cozy and a little removed and I don't (outside of this achingly long post) need to worry my little head about who has conquered any sort of scene. I am by no means a historian of all this. Those older than me would give a far wiser account of these shifts. I only know the little that I know, and I have not sought much new information.

Have I made "Low" any clearer? I hope so. Maybe I just ought to have attached some pictures of Brooklyn and Memphis, of the uncommon beauty I find here and there. I was back in Memphis last week. On Friday afternoon, Pillow and I stopped by our favorite bar, The Buccaneer, and slipped into a massive vinyl booth that we like to call our office. The Bucc' has been around since the mid-sixties, a gem of an American dive with an unchanged, demi-nautical interior. It smells rather off, and as we sat sipping our bourbon and something-like-ginger-ales, small flies droned around us. The Ole' Miss game was on a television in the opposite corner, and a group of rough-about-the-edges good ole' boys and girls of a certain generation (original regulars) had gathered to watch it. At one point, I went to the bathroom. I closed and locked the door. I sat on the toilet and read a little bit of familiar graffiti about familiar people. I glanced up at the beams on the ceiling. I began to cry, happily and just a little. Sitting on the toilet at the Buccaneer felt like "Low" and home in the most unimpeachable way. And I would never get "High" without it.

Lastly (I promise), a song that is absolutely "Low" and absolutely smart (in what is, I believe, an unintentionally genius non-video video format):

Folk Art for Monday

This mugshot of Erin Caffey of Alba, Texas, a teenage girl prison-bound for plotting the murders of her mother and young brothers (at the hands of an ubiquitous, sleazy, older boyfriend), is the most incisive portrait I've seen in some time.

Verses

I feel a bit criminal excluding most of the poem; but here are the last four lines, because they are the finest—

excerpt from Song (1951)

Frank O'hara

I suppose I'll walk back West.

But for now I'm gone forever!

the city's hung with flashlights!

the Ferry's unbuttoning its vest!

Never Change

It would really break my heart to see the New Jersey Transit emblem go the way of the Duane Reade emblem of my last post.

For Shame

These new, cheap, hungry Duane Reade graphics are killing me softly. The original logo was perfectly great, bright, direct, like American Sportswear (or our beloved A&P). A plague . . .